Letter to my Insecurity

I never meant to lead you on, that was not my intention. But I am at fault, I'm guilty of not telling you what I was thinking, or my decisions, or what I was feeling at the time. I was never scared of you hurting me, I trust you more than I trust myself sometimes. And I took what you have to offer for granted. But I need you to understand where I'm coming from. I kept it honest with you, even though it was a late ass honesty. But I respect you enough to not even get into something really serious when I don't feel like I can be 100% faithful. And I know you said your ex boyfriend cheated on you, and I don't wanna be anything like him. Even though I know kissing that girl in front of you was exactly what I did. We never needed official titles. I just should of done more to let you know what was up. And I never meant to make you feel insecure or guilty about anything. You have every reason to be pissed off at me and leave. I can't blame you. But through all we've been, I at least hope we can stay friends. That we can be civil towards one another and you don't wish to see me burn in hell. In a perfect world, we would be the best couple ever. I just don't feel like I can give you that RIGHT NOW. I took your love for granted and I deserve the consequences of you walking out of my life.